So, I haven't shared this tidbit about myself with you yet but those people in that picture are some of the most amazing people in the entire world. After my faith, FCCLA (Family, Career, and Community Leaders of America) is my passion. I had the opportunity to serve as the 2008-2009 Iowa FCCLA President and I absolutely loved every single minute of it. In the picture are my other 6 officers along with our state officer coordinator at our state leadership conference held in March. During my term I learned so much about myself and about life in general and I owe all of those lessons to my fellow officers. They are all wonderful, amazing people with so much dedication for the things they involve themselves in and that is something I truly admire. People always said that we were a great team and I honestly believe that, we all worked so well together and got along perfectly that I couldn't have asked for six other people to work with for a year. We had way too much fun together but at the same time we knew when to buckle down and be productive so we could get home after a long weekend of work and planning.
Since our term ended at the end of March, I have been trying to forget about it and push it aside so I can focus on the things I have coming up in my life (for example, graduation) but it has been so hard! And it should be...it's impossible to forget about something or someone who made a great impact on your life and these people most definitely impacted the person I am. Honestly, it's not easy being done...and that sounds so greedy and selfish but I miss all of them more than anything. We are spread out all across the state and before I could always count on seeing them at our monthly meetings but now we're done and I haven't seen them for a month and it's proving to be quite trying. They are people who kept my life in check over the course of the year and they were always there to listen when I needed to vent and they are still there for me, they will always be there for me, but distance just makes things so much more difficult.
Just for you to get an idea of how much we all loved Iowa FCCLA...Rebeka (third from the right in the picture) texted me last week and said she hadn't unpacked her suitcase yet because she thought that if she didn't unpack then it wouldn't seem like she was really done yet. I laughed at her...because that's how our relationship works...and told her she was a little bit ridiculous but then I went upstairs later that night only to discover that my suitcase is still sitting in the middle of my floor and it's mostly unpacked but there are definitely still several items of clothing and other random supplies in my bag that I haven't even thought of unpacking yet. So apparently I am suffering from the same despression as Rebeka...and I really don't think it's completely hit me yet that it really is over and maybe I really haven't unpacked yet because I don't want to face the fact that I'm done.
I really don't know how to explain my emotions because I really am excited to see what the 2009-2010 officer team can do and all the great places they are going to take the association but at the same time, it sucks to have everything one day and then the next day have it all taken away. It comes with lots of shock, tears, hugs, sadness, joy, and relief...how's that for a mixture of emotions?! It's pretty much impossible to deal with all those emotions at the same time...and that's what I have been trying to do and it's not working because I am still living in denial and I really don't want to admit to the fact that I'm finished serving as president.
But, let's look on the bright side! In just a few short months, 6 of the 7 from our team are going to the National Leadership Conference in Nashville, TN and I am pretty much counting down the days until July 10th! It's going to be one of the best reunions ever and we are going to have a fun-filled, relaxing week with each other and with all the officers from around the country that we met over the course of our year. When I get down thinking about the fact that it's over, I just think about the fact that we are going to be together again soon and it's going to be amazing! It usually helps me get through the sadness and brings a smile to my face :)
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